Perfection

Shes the star in this scene
There's no way to deny shes lovely
Perfect skin perfect hair
Perfumed hearts everywhere

 

Its hard to read magazines with pictures of perfection facing you at every turn of the page. I'm back to wanting the honey caramel streaks on the perfectly blown-dried hair which probably lasts for a day or two before I end up back with my normal slightly frazzled waves coupled with split ends 3 weeks later. Reality bites.

Henna treatments were slightly better albeit the messiest times on the kitchen floor with gloop stuck on for all of 12 hrs and tea smelling clothes/towels after... 

Is beauty truly in the eye of the beholder?

  Who can deny the allure of the smoky eye, the red lip or the nude gloss. Makeup holds the power to transform (or completely screw you over if you don't know what you're doing).

  Undeniably a woman who knows how to wield her makeup can hide a multitude of flaws, can airbrush out the eyebags and tired eyes. Can paint on a face that speaks volumes. Which is of course the beauty of makeup. But when you cannot leave the house without an inch of warpaint on, that's where your reality gets warped. Because in the end, all you have is your true self under it all.

Same thing goes with bodies, who can say they love every inch of themselves 100% of the time. We have the fat days, where we feel nothing fits right, or sometimes we have the good days where you stroll out in the shorts and tank feeling fit and fab. More often than not for me it comes after a good pain-inducing workout. Psychological? Most likely. Meanwhile the biggest loser is proving to be a very good source of inspiration for me to think twice before picking up the junk food!

Anyway its less about the numbers on the scales than about the way the clothes fit. Nike ads a couple of yrs back was awesome.

After all, don't we just want to be gorgeous?

Satisfying Day

I've been on the move since 8am this morning handling miscelleneous stuff. Canadian Visa in the morning then the skin clinic to get my 4 months work of roaccutane (woohoo!). Then off to KLCC where Lixian didn't end up joining me =(, and I need to find friends who aren't working/studying and actually lepak-ing and wake up earlier than noon. Oh, and can drive.

So ended up watching District 9 alone, which was fine really, movie was disturbing to say the least, but excellent, really excellent. Made me leave the cinema checking that I wasn't turning into an alien or something. I can't believe I sympathized with a prawn.

Bought Elena's present after much debate, caught a slow lunch with sencha and a sandwich up in the coffee club , picked up the Visa (Niagara Falls here I come!) then headed home. Played tennis with Nat before it poured, bummed around her jacuzzi, ate dinns with her family then went to BV for Bisou cupcakes and Theobrama Hot Choco. Cupcakes were decent, still nothing to shout about, Hot Choco was good, but I think I'm gna stick with my Lady in Red for that extra kick! Bought a Herves Leger lookalike dress from Zara, was going cheap at RM 139, which I thought was a decent price. $$$ from internship is slowly depleting, owch. I'm not sure whether the extra $$$ I didn't realize I'd be getting was already in or not. Crap.

But wtv, earnings were there for spending =). I bought books!!! Neil Gaiman's "Neverwhere" and Salman Rushdie's "The Enchantress of Florence". Tash Aw's new book was surprisingly expensive and I was feeling kiamsiap since I could get 2 books for his "Map of the Invisible World"...oh well, maybe another day!

I also went poledancing last night =). In a bar. No not really, it was a dance studio, involved short shorts, alot of muscle work...and burns. I am now obsessed with figuring out how to hang upside down on a pole....ultimate aim!!! Headed to Shisha with Isabelle and a couple of her friends after, was a nice relaxing couple of hours makan-ing. Bliss.

Dreamlist as of 12:56am 18th August 2009

Sunshine in a bottle
Slouchy (warm) boots
Oversize comfy hoodie
Trench-coat
Jimmy Choo/Loubatin heels
Skydiving lesson
Diamond Studs
Recreating Delicious' Duck Confit Pasta
More travelling
Seeing Machu Picchu
Funky Earrings
Any SLR
Polaroid Cam
Unlimited $$$ for books
GG wardrobe + Season 3
Happy Jon&Kate+8 to watch during dinners
YHO Symposium=Success
A Magna Cum Laude
Watching District 9/UP

Sweet Misgivings

It's been a hectic week flying to Bangkok, headed to Pattaya, which was full of sleazy old white guys with young Thai girls in tow. Lord knows I ain't going to put my 2 cents worth on that. One searches for carnal pleasure, the other for a means to survive. And maybe the draw-the-line to match the correct answers isn't as straightforward as you think it is. Hmm, that might be a theme to explore. Then to BKK for shopping therapy. It's getting old tho, after a while you tire of seeing all the same knockoffs. Of course got some excellent earrings, yay, I'm back on the earring binges again! And a cheapass silk dress for RM18!

Then this weekend saw Mei and Colin down in town where there was an impromptu detour to KLPAC for their Short+Sweet series which made me laugh/feel/think. Surprised to see a couple of familiar faces. But Unsaid should win I think, it's SO cute. And the guy is nerdy-cute too, kinda Asian Harry Potter quirkiness. The Junction aka the one with the pondan Indian guy in a Sari talking about pondan-ness (I went shopping Bitch) was heartfelt as it was unabashedly a laugh out loud slightly stereotypical portrayal of gays, with a predictable ending but still touching. I have come the conclusion that there are two styles of storyline. The totally out of the ordinary story and the predictable sequence/end that still has the effect to make you feel something even though it has been rehashed so many times. I think the 2nd one is harder, because it's something that has been done or seen before but to still make one think with the core material that has been repeated is probably harder than the wacky storyline. Or well, I guess both are hard.

Then today to the middle of nowhere i.e. Bianco for lunch after a nice morning of gymming and sunbathing by the pool under the glare of the noon sun. Bad for me I know, but I do slather on the sunscreen, wear a hat and put on my sunglasses. Murakami accompanied me. 2nd reading and I still don't understand the stories. But perhaps that's just the way it is.

It stormed. Been sometime since it's done that. Was refreshing. Then just at Zita's 20th bday affair, small and quiet at her house, but fun catching up with ppl. Time passed pretty fast, good party, and lovely singing wrapped up with animated Taboo, where I did the slamdunk with 6 in a minute =).

I also have found a bad addiction to Shisha. Bad. Very Bad. I am still on my quest for the perfect cupcake. Bisou cupcake to be tasted tomorrow.

Pole Dancing on Wednesday. Hopefully. Woot!

Tonight I shut off my alarm aka my Handphone, and wake up at whatever time I wake up. Bliss.

So I guess the fortune-tellers right
You don't seem to know seem to care what your heart is for.

Bohemian-ness

Woooo, Vicki Cristina Barcelona was a hell of a movie. Strangely unsatisfied with the ending since I thought it'd end with someone being killed ala Camus' L'Etrange, seemed to be building up to that, but felt it was kinda cut short! Needed way more drama, and dang, Penelope Cruz is sexy! Should I start getting worried that I find checking out hot women way more interesting than men?

Found Miss Tse over the weekend, was entertaining, loadsa good food, Ham Yu Fa Lam Po is officially my new fav. dish in Overseas =). Tried to get into Skybar but it was PACKED, debated flirting with fat white tourist in the corner looking absolutely bored with his fiancee/wife/gf who had gone to the bathroom and who happened to keep glancing me and Cris's way =P, eee sick.

Having some interesting convos with the girlfriends. Jin is currently saying what's the pt of a relationship when she can get equally as much satisfaction from having girl-friends who know her better than a guy every would. Can't disagree with her really, but I'm still gunning for the fact that theres something missing (i.e. the physical part of the relationship), which isn't to say more important than emotional connection, but they enhance each other.

I'm kinda envious of the people who just fall into relationships so easily. Is it really that easy to find so many people you like enough to want to wake up next to? To want to sit across the table from during meals, to share experiences with? It's a hard question to answer I guess, but truly love is blind.

Don't we all wish to be the one girl who can make that one guy fall for her so hard that he's willing to do anything for her? Don't we want to be able to impact someone else to the very core of their soul, to make every other relationship after her nothing more than a hunt to recreate the connection that was once there?

I have to stop watching romantic movies =S.

Lackadaisacal

NO MORE!

10 weeks have passed, and yes, I have survived my internship a bit battered, a bit bruised. But still alive. What have I gained? A bunch of really cool people, a bit of spending $ and a sense of accomplishment.

Wrapping up was kinda sad, I'll miss ta pau-ing from the little lane round the corner, the lunchtimes that everyone looks forward to starting from 8:30am and the post-stonage that lasts til balik rumah time =).

I won't miss waking up early. Or filing.

Well hopefully will be in contact with some of the people in the office =).

Meanwhile I'm getting panicked about Lilian who has gone missing. Shit shit shit. Damn freaked out as of now.

Quaintly had a good post about the internship blues that she's been facing too. It's true tho, working life makes you jaded. I don't understand how people still feel like doing anything after work wraps up. Surprising, school is equally as lamentably blah, but somehow still feels like you have a life. Prob. coz there's always something happening ala extracurriculars, sports etc. Graduation is definitely gna be bittersweet.

Summer Lovin'

I miss my Olympus Macromode...Sony just doesn't do a good job =(. Cupcake at TheLawn KLCC













FRIM 2008. Reminded me of Taman Negara/Pangkor/DOE Silver/DOE Gold. Good sweaty times - leeches.















My red suitcase which has travelled with me through the weather/miles. Prep for Sg 2008. Should reread that book..hmm












Heaven.













Post GCSE getaway.



















Penang post freshmen yr summer 08


















Pre US leaving. Lemon Garden.



















Fuyang 08 Summer. Hope the kids are well.














Lorch Hall + Cold weather+ Middle of Winter semester + 4pm + 3 very stoned girls + Summer dreaming = Econ 402







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