Blessings...

...in disguise and all that shit.

Ma: "God gave you more."
Me: Snort, "What about my own efforts?!"

I don't know man, maybe if we take every little thing that comes our way as being something that was crafted by a higher being and we were lucky to receive some morsel of it, that's where a lot of this worlds troubles start. This insistence that we are working to enter some glorious freakin paradise above only serves to blind us to the realities of THIS life.

Then I was thinking, who in their right mind likes war? Who like putting all this effort into thinking how they can harm the next person? Are we as animalistic as that? I guess the answer is, damn right we are. There isn't a day I'm going to open those papers and find only happy stories is there? Oh well.

Then the instance where me and a good friend had exactly the same thought watching the kinda sweet x factor Britney acoustic song sung by the sweetest couple, EVER. That look she gives him recalls everything about romance that you would want to believe at that age (that age being..12 maybe?), but then you grow up and slowly realize after being burnt a few too many times that hey, maybe you will end up forever alone.

In short, I have turned into one of the most pessimistic and cynical people I know, just as I predicted I would. Bah.

Uplift

This world is getting colder, strangers passing by

No one offers you a shoulder, no one looks you in the eye

But I've been looking at you for a long, long time

Just trying to break through, trying to make you mine

Everybody wants a flame, but they don't want to get burnt

Well, today is our turn

Of Stag nights and Superman

Awesomely drunken night that I haven't reached the levels of, since Cancun 2010. When the world doesn't stop spinning after a couple of retchings, then you know you're truly fucked.

Pub golf 2/3 done, to be fair the bars were shutting already by the time we wanted to attempt #7 and not wearing heels was a good call on my part. Earlier that day did a 3 hour trek on Bukit Apek, 6 km and incredibly hilly slopes to a quiet, decent waterfall where we bumped into more people separated by 2 degrees of separation. Following that a hearty bowl of pork, pork, pork at Kui Lam after travelling through serai, durian, bawang lanes in Cheras. Awesome stuff man, the soup is extremely addictive.

As much as my time with Ethos has ended, it gave me awesome friends, that's for sure. Friends that started off as colleagues but soon became family really, seeing how they are the people I spent the most time with in the past 2 years.

To be alive. This is what it means.